Things that I sense
are possible in my future.
One
thing that I realize in my future, maybe closer than I think, is my own
death. I have a lung condition that I have been gone to some
length to know very little about; however I can feel that it is limiting my
energy and doesn't augur well for the future. Although after some medical
examinations I seem to be good for any number of years. This does not preclude the certainty of my
death. Being in the blessed state of
self proclaimed senility I chose to ignore the all to current fears of my
generation: dementia, stroke, diapered existence in an old people's home. Instead I imagine the death I would like to
achieve. I am
hoping to make space -- physical, psychic room, to allow my life to play itself
all the way out -- so that rather than just getting out of the way, aging and
dying can become a process of crescendo through to the end.
More to come. What about you? any thoughts about your 'big event'?
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